Wishing him a safe flight

Because I still love and care about him and I'm not an asshole. I'm better than he will probably ever get. Even if I was supposed to be on that vacation.  Part of me is in denial totally, all of me wants things to be different, and reality tells me that I need to let this all go. Stepping out for a coffee as I begin to feel my mood changing to sad, wanting to pick him up from EWR like nothing ever happened, like I wasn't even supposed to be on that vacation.